Lost ETH Money Pending transactions

I have made a transaction with my Metamask account and the transaction kept pending and no hash on etherscan to support it. the NFT is as well not in my open sea account.

I lost my money and no reference to retrieve. i am sure from my account you can see the money lost.

i made 2 transactions at the same time and the 2nd was not fullfilled
(Sep-20-2021 06:02:09 PM +UTC)